Men are from mars?
I’m swear I am going to go crazy and have a big meltdown soon. Recently my girlfriend has been distancing herself more and more, to the point now where she doesn’t touch when, look at me, kiss me or want to sleep with me. There are so many issues surrounding the whole scenario and far to much to go into great depth with but I am litterally stuck now and so I’m writing on my blog to see if it helps. She’s 25 weeks pregnant now, so I guess her mood swings and hormones are still all over the place but her lack of commitment to our relationship really concerns me. She told me tonight that she doesn’t want us to move in together and she just wants her house for her daughter and she wants me to stay maybe 3 nights and have our new baby for one night during the week at mine. I’m dead against this – I’m a romantic, loving, loyal and faithful man. I have time for everyone and love her eternally but this commitment issue is confusing me and getting me down. I’ve told her that I will provide for her, give her my everything- she is my world. But she a builds a huge wall up around her and will not listen to any reasoning. She just shouts and gets angry. Her a daughter and I are close and that’s amazing but she resents me for that and sees it as a negative thing instead of a positive. She let’s her daughter sleep with her (shes 5) so she doesn’t have to sleep with me and that breaks my heart. I love them both but she’s using her daughter as a reason behind her not wanting to sleep with Mr. It’s not just about that though. She does not want to spend time with me – even though I want too… we both work shifts and so we don’t spend 24/7 time together… which is healthy and I understand that but there is no time for myself and her alone – or if there is she makes some excuse. I live approx 15 miles away so when an opportunity arrives to spend time together on occasion, I obviously want to spend that time with her.. she then says I’m rushing to see her. I litterally cannot win. Everything I do causes a problem for her, she says I want to argue with her all the time and she’s suck of it. Let me get that straight.. I do not argue or want to start arguing – I’m trying to relay my feelings and she sees that as wanting to start an argument. I want us to be a family, live together but she says she wants her own space. How can I get my point across hat she will have space? We both work.. I’m not taking over… I love her and respect her too much but she treats me like dirt and I can’t handle it.
All I want is for us to be happy, I’m happy when I’m with her… she’s happy when I’m not with her…..
I’ve asked her bluntly if she wants the relationship between us to continue and if she loves me to which she’s said yes… bit she continues to treat me like her lapdog when it’s convenient for her… I’ve told her that it’s hurting my feelings but she just says I’m wanting to argue..
I litterally have no more words.. I’m heartbroken but I’m not the kind of person to just give up. I will never give up on something or someone I’m passionate about.
I feel better for writing but her narcissistic behaviour really pisses me off.