Month: October 2015

Two minds

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I’ve been saving this one for a rainy day –

And it’s a really good tune !!

Nero – Two Minds 

Even if I
Could see into your mind
Even if I
Tried to see
I’d still never really know
If you cared
You didn’t hear a word
That I said

Cause I told you too many times
It’s the little things that count which can make someone feel special
I think you’re always in two minds
And it’s forever that way, I know what you’re gonna say
I told you too many times
It’s the little things that count which can make someone feel special
I think you’re always in two minds
And it’s forever that way, I know what you’re gonna say

Two minds
Two minds

Even if I
Could see into your mind
Even if I
Tried to see

I’d still never really know
If you cared
You didn’t hear a word
That I said

Cause I told you too many times
It’s the little things that count which can make someone feel special
I think you’re always in two minds
And it’s forever that way, I know what you’re gonna say
I told you too many times
It’s the little things that count which can make someone feel special
I think you’re always in two minds
And it’s forever that way, I know what you’re gonna say

I told you too many times
It’s the little things that count which can make someone feel special
I think you’re always in two minds
And it’s forever that way, I know what you’re gonna say
I told you too many times
It’s the little things that count which can make someone feel special
I think you’re always in two minds
And it’s forever that way

Cold

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It’s windy, which means I won’t get much sleep.

It’s dark, but it’s not pitch black.

I don’t know what to do tomorrow –

But I’m still smiling.

Ooooooooooooooo
Ooooooooooooooo

You told me, I see the rise
But, it always falls
I see them come, I see them go
He said, “All things pass into the night”
And I said, “Oh no sir I must say you’re wrong
I must disagree, oh no sir, I must say you’re wrong”
Won’t you listen to me

You told me, I’ve seen it all before
I been there, I’ve seen my hopes and dreams
Lying on the ground

I’ve seen the sky just begin to fall
He said, “All things pass into the night”
And I say, “Oh no sir, I must say you’re wrong
I must disagree, oh no sir, I must say you’re wrong”
Won’t you listen to me

Nightshift

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I’ve been lounging around today – but I did manage to get a walk and scout out a few photography locations. Pictures below –

I listened to a few songs, drove around a bit, went to the supermarket and spent money on rubbish arriving at work a whole hour early. Mainly because plans changed and I didn’t really know what else to do.
It’s just after 5am here – not much happened for the last few hours so I thought I’d catch up on my blogs and eat sweets while listening to the radios and telephones in one ear and music in the other.

When you work in this kind of environment your brain trains itself to listen to multiple things at the same time. When you first start – it’s like white noise but with time it becomes almost like the matrix. You hear everything – you can pick up on tones in voices, when something isn’t right – when someone is upset or just winding you up.

I sometimes moan about my job but secretly I love it – I like it when it’s busy though and not boring – when the phone hasn’t beeped for 2 hours and there have been no radio transmissions…. it’s a little tedious.

I’m slowly getting back to some kind of normality – I’m starting to slowly feel ‘myself’ again… I am getting what I need and I’m smiling more – In my heart I still think I’m a little depressed but my friends and my secret life are beginning to almost ‘come together’ (separately obviously)

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I just don’t want to loose myself.. because if I loose myself, I’ll loose it all.

Order

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As a bit of a freak – I crave order and have to plan meticulously. Otherwise I end up lying on the sofa not doing anything. It’s not written down but I have to etch things into my mind, yes I’m a free spirit but if I need to do something I have to think about it.
I’m always early because I am – I can’t be late for anything and if this means waiting around – I’m happy to do this….I have to get to work early to relax before work. Etc etc..

I’m not let down when things don’t quite go to plan – I keep focused and remain optimistic about the details, sometimes having to think of new scenarios to compensate for the change of plans… but I make it.

Sometimes I ask loads of questions – just to paint a picture of how things are going to be – or how I’d like things to turn out… I guess this is why I can be a little demanding sometimes… it’s just me- if you know me… it’s kind of something you get used to.

I’ve had a mental day at work, the busiest it’s been in a while and we’re so short staffed It’s untrue. Coping is a part of life we all have to put up with… some more than others and more often than not – I find myself coping for other people too… mainly a friend who needs that friend for venting, or coping with situations at home. They can always talk to me – make me laugh and smile and generally it makes me feel better and happier.

Sometimes I may come across as a little ‘oppressive’ shall we say. I don’t mean to be – I don’t intend to be but I’m honest with myself and I get annoyed with myself when I am…so If I am – I’m sorry – I really don’t mean to be.

I’m lying in bed now, in my normal naked state. Abstaining from my usual regime because I’ve got self control and I want to carry this on until the time is right… this will make sense to some people I’m sure….

Tomorrow is a new day – it’ll be a long day but also a happy day as – it’s one day nearer to a plan coming together.

Using photography as one of the mediums that keeps me sane… it’ll be more than worth waiting for.

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Image is my own and unedited. Taken a few weeks ago now just before another memorable experience.

Her Life Observations

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I’ve never really encountered someone who really makes me angry – who makes my blood boil and loose my temper. I’m going to call him Richard –

Richard has a wife. She’s true beauty and he has everything but he’s blind to it, he doesn’t see what’s in front of him and this is where I’m going to begin.

Take note !

You’re in a rut in your relationship – so you communicate. Sex may be an issue answer you’re not being fulfilled or getting what you need. Your wife has addressed this and opens up to you – she tells you what she wants. Richard why oh why don’t you listen to her.. your wife doesn’t want ‘just’ vanilla. She wants so much more. You’ve admitted that you have cock issues – so instead of just saying you’ll see the doctor.. actually go !! It may help.

When your wife is really sick – surely you’ll care for her (vow – in sickness)…. ? You think.
If you feel she’s hot – wake her up and make her drink… don’t just feel her and wipe the sweat on her and follow this up in the morning by saying you were worried ! Richard – I’m not comprehending you’re worriedness.

So Richard… you say you’re going to cook dinner because she is sick. (Something you’ve never done ever) don’t by processed shite that you put in the microwave. It would take less time to make some fresh soup for her… you idiot.

Sometime in the middle of this century this thing called cleaning was invented – I’m pretty sure it’s always been around but it’s getting better. These are modern times… Why can you not clean? Why can you not give her a break ?

This is my observation Richard –

If I had a wife as good as yours – I’d make sure the house was tidy before she got home.. seeing as you’re home 90 minutes before she is.
If youre shit at cooking – peel some vegetables or ask her if there is anything you can do to help
If she’s had a hard day – have a bath ready or at least prepared.
If you’re sat on your ass when she gets home with dishes in the sink and housework not been done.. you’re an idiot
If you show her up at posh events – you’re an idiot
If you show her no interest intimately – you’re an idiot.

You dont live in the dark ages.. so stop being a fucking idiot – it makes me angry.

When you get a message late at night from a friend – and she’s upset. .. be there for her !!

Richard … you’re a dick !! Well done

Boredom —

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What is boredom?

Boredom is lying in bed because there wasn’t much point in getting up – purely because more boredom would follow.

Boredom is getting up and not getting dressed – just because clothes are boring and I need some thrill.

Boredom was set aside with a thrilling mission… to only return to boredom due to chance and threat.

Boredom returned while the washing machine spun.

Boredom was lost for 30 seconds while I cleaned and performed menial tasks in the home… but it was boring.

I’m lying in the dark – on my bed, fully clothed.. bored

Boring day.